I love you and that’s why I want to forget you… you see, you’re not healthy for me; your tendencies balance on the edge of sanity. Your love is shown in twisted ways, which brings me to question the truth within your words. I see the beauty in all, to a fault sometimes. I lose myself in the brilliancy of others but blind myself to the danger that lurks in their shadows. I do not respect myself enough to distance myself from people like you for I see the pain in your eyes and wish to hold you tight. But one cannot love another enough to heal. The other must first wish to receive the love in order to heal. I will never be enough for you. I will never be enough for anyone, such as yourself. That is why I must be enough for myself. And through this love, I wash myself clean of you. I love you but not enough to enable your self-inflicted suffering. I wish to love you in the ways you need to be loved, but you will not allow that. So you leave me no choice but to set you free from my warm embrace. I set you free, so that you can find your own way… so that the tides of the universal ocean can wash you ashore to better suited lands. The love I have had for you was true and the love I still have for you is still my truth. But I know now there is love within letting go. I am not abandoning you for love never leaves us… the only way I can abandon you is through fearing you. So I will become strong enough to never fear a love like you again. I will love myself to the point of freedom from these loveless chains that masquerade themselves as a mother’s / father’s embrace. I shall dance in the chaos of my storms and call it ecstasy for the darkness within me was conditioned to be feared but the darkness is but the holy grail of our existence; the stillness, the void, the everythingness… the present moment is where I will find heaven, ironically where I perceive myself in hell. The love that set me free came from within me. I subconsciously believed it would come from a man like you, but I have realized that love can be something I’ve never experienced before… true love can be a force that which my physical mind and body have yet to intimately know. So I bask here within this knowing, this realization, and take my first step into this new world that I have created only moments ago; I now step into my power…

…goodbye. ❤️🍀