I’ve spent the last few days thinking about all the people I’ve ever felt very connected to, people who I have loved and who have not loved me, and people who have loved me but who I cannot ever love. And it’s provided me with some ideas. I am slowly starting to understand that all these people have something to teach me. How to love and how to not love, how to be kind and how to be unkind. The last few days have made me think about who will stay and who will leave. The people I can call upon at 4am in the morning are the people who will stay with me. The people who teach me something new are the ones who will change me. The people who have never told me how they feel about me, I will never know. But I don’t think that I’ll ever stop learning about how to love a human being. I don’t think I want to stop learning that. After all, I’m still fairly amazed that I’m a sentient being with the ability to think and feel. And I’m also happy that I’ve learned to be savvy enough to keep surviving. At this rate, hopefully the most potent lesson I’ll teach myself is the way to properly love one person.

Peace & love!