October 2016

In the depths of my being, I find myself entwined with the untamed spirit of the wolves, sharing a connection to the wild and primal forces of nature. Yet, as I stand amidst the clovers of fortune, it seems that fate conspires to rip them away, leaving me bereft of luck and fortune.

I dig my place on the earth, seeking solace and grounding amidst the chaos that surrounds me. But instead of finding respite, I feel myself being devoured, consumed by the darkness that lurks within the ink-black nights. It is in this darkness that I encounter love, a love that is tainted with weariness and exhaustion.

You, with your harsh words, humiliate me, stripping away any semblance of self-worth. Your moist eyes deceive me, offering false solace and empty promises. It is as if you dig into my wounds, exacerbating my pain and dependence on you. You decree me the failure of my very being, both in body and mind.

In this twisted dance of power, you label me as stupid, little, and insufficient. You sacrifice me to your gods, those poor devils of selfishness and ego. With every mockery, you bid me farewell, leaving me alone by the gutters of despair. All you ask is that I keep my own life, so that through the transformation it brings, I become someone unrecognizable, a stranger to my own existence.

But know this, as I emerge from the depths of your manipulation, I will shed the shackles of your influence. I will rise anew, reborn from the ashes of your deceit. Tomorrow, I will stand tall, unrecognizable to you, for I will have reclaimed my true essence, my authentic self.

So go forth, with your selfishness and cruelty, for I will no longer be bound by your presence. I will forge my own path, guided by the light of my own truth. And in this journey of self-discovery, I will find strength, resilience, and a newfound sense of identity. Farewell to the old, and welcome to the new, for I am no longer the person you once knew…🙏❤

©️ Beatriz Esmer