I want to begin by saying how deeply sorry I am. I know I forget how to be a good friend sometimes. It’s dark where I am, and I often find it hard to breathe. But please believe me when I say that I love you, even when things get so bad that I can’t even recognize myself in the mirror.

I apologize for not laughing at your jokes like I mean it, for my inability to focus, and for the times you see me frowning. Please understand that I don’t mean any of it. I’m just trying to find my way back into my body, but I’ve been lost for a while.

You deserve so much better, and I’m fully aware of that. If you can, please be patient with me. I am trying, truly, and I hope you can give me the time I need. Your kindness and patience mean the world to me, and I promise to find my way back to being the friend you deserve.

With all my love,

Bia Esmer ❤️🙏🏾

©️ Beatriz Esmer