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Stillness

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In the quiet of the night, I’ve tried to adjust my eyes, to push the pain away to aside. I’ve sought to grasp the fleeting moments, to hold my breath in a refrain, or a sigh, but sometimes the only way to gain, is to hide. Like a solitary dancer in the moon’s soft glow, I’ve spun and twirled, hoping to escape the ache that lingers in the corners of my soul. I’ve painted my sorrows with the colors of dusk, hoping to blend them into the fading light, to become invisible, to be free from the weight that pulls … Continue reading Stillness

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Simple things …

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I come from humble people, from a lineage of simplicity and grace. I have lived a humble life, finding joy in the little things and embracing the beauty of the ordinary. My aspirations do not lie in the grandeur of a fancy home, but in the warmth and contentment of a happy one. This is more me than the allure of “fancy” things. I admire antiques, drawn to the craftsmanship and textures that tell stories of generations past. I find solace in architecture, in the intricate details that whisper of history and time. I love to draw with graphite and … Continue reading Simple things …

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I arrived to nurture your seeds …

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Love, a force that transcends time and circumstance, I arrived to nurture your seeds that tremble in the face of winter’s chill. The anxiety of what lies ahead is not born from the uncertainty of uncharted paths that may lead to missteps, but rather from the lingering weight of past mistakes we struggled to bid farewell. It’s when we grasp that the keys to our confinement have always resided within our reach, that we can truly herald the arrival of a new year. Pardon the apprehension of revisiting those dusty chapters of your life. Understand that renewal and rebirth are … Continue reading I arrived to nurture your seeds …

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I used to think I was not good enough for anyone, in my profession…

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In the quiet of night, when the world is hushed and still, a whisper creeps into the chambers of my mind, echoing doubts I thought I had overcome. It speaks of inadequacy, of not measuring up, weaving self-doubts that once ensnared me in its suffocating embrace. I used to believe I was not enough, that my efforts would never be sufficient, that my presence was merely a fleeting shadow in the grand theater of life. The doubts lingered like ghosts, haunting my profession, my relationships, and every corner of my existence. But I broke free from those chains, shattered the … Continue reading I used to think I was not good enough for anyone, in my profession…

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Pour yourself over the paper …

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Drag a pen across paper, etching your pain into the fibers, leaving behind a trail of tear-stained corners. Breathe hot, alcohol-scented breaths into the pages, a futile attempt to silence the screams within. Handle it with caution, as if it were poison, a dangerous concoction of your innermost thoughts and emotions. Slide it between the leaves of an old dusty book, a hidden treasure of your turmoil, and then walk away, never to revisit its haunting words. Feel it in the swell of your chest on good days, a reminder that even in moments of joy, the pain still lingers. … Continue reading Pour yourself over the paper …

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Who am I?

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I am the color of the sky, the vast expanse of blue that stretches beyond the horizon, the endless possibilities and dreams that soar high above. I am the freedom and the hope that whispers in the wind, the gentle touch that reminds you to keep reaching for the stars. I am the color of the earth, the grounding force that connects you to the roots of your being, the stability and resilience that holds you steady in the storm. I am the foundation on which you build your life, the solid ground that supports you through every trial and … Continue reading Who am I?

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The anger in me …

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The anger in me cannot write poems It sits and watches as my words struggle to break free it spits in the face of those who claim there is only one race While the sun is stained with innocent blood. It sits and watches as the words shatter into countless stanzas trying to find their place on my tongue, but I cannot form them into coherent thoughts, the anger sits in the corner of my heart, waiting for calm. The earth is burdened with the blood of the innocent as summer days are tainted with the souls of those who … Continue reading The anger in me …

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I am here

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I am here. In this moment, in this place, I stand, a solitary figure on this vast stage of existence. These three words, a declaration echoing through time, encapsulate the essence of my being. Here, in the embrace of this earth, under the canopy of this sky, I find my footing, my purpose, and my truth. Here, not in some distant realm, but on this continent, where the pulse of life beats in harmony with my own. Here, in this city, where the symphony of humanity weaves its intricate melodies, shaping the cadence of my days. Here, in this epoch, … Continue reading I am here

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“I feel ugly”

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As a black woman, I have had many conversations with white women who seek to empathize with my experiences of racism by drawing parallels to their own struggles with beauty standards. One of the most common statements I hear is, “I feel ugly too.” While I understand that everyone has their own insecurities and struggles, this statement falls short in truly understanding the depth of what it means to be black in a racist society. When a white woman tells me she “feels ugly too,” she is attempting to equate her experiences of beauty standards with the systemic racism and … Continue reading “I feel ugly”

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Be the One Who Stays: Embracing Love and Integrity

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In a world where fleeting connections and temporary pleasures often take precedence, there’s a profound beauty in being the one who stays. It’s about being the person who doesn’t feel the need to deceive, play games, or shy away from love. It’s about embracing honesty, kindness, and the enduring power of love. Choosing to be the one who stays means standing firm in your values and commitments. It means being the kind of person who doesn’t just talk the talk but walks the walk. It’s about recognizing the significance of love and not allowing fear to dictate your actions. Instead, … Continue reading Be the One Who Stays: Embracing Love and Integrity